Good stuff :)

Basically, I'm stupid. I don't want to be with Josh anymore. Not romantically, anyways. I was so distraught earlier, and I guess it was just shock. After I went to see my counsoler, I felt so much better. We aren't right for each other at all. Maybe before, but not anymore. Trying to stay together was just a silly mistake. My counsoler and I talked about it and everything I wanted in a guy.

I said:

• Sympathy, because I cry so much
• Someone who needs me
• Someone who will open up to me
• He's himself around me, and we want the same things
• Animals :)

Okay, so the animals one is silly :) but seriously! I love animals so much, and I want to have animals around my house, and I just couldn't be with someone who didn't. Anyways, I realized that Josh wasn't really any of these, and we just didn't make a good couple at all. I still would LOVE for him to be my best friend, but I understand he needs his time. I'm just so happy that I'm not so broken after this. I have so much more living to do, and I need to grow. Theres so much I want to be but I'm not right now, and I feel like I couldn't do that if I was in a relationship. I'm just so proud of myself because I'm not being insane this time. :D Today is the start of something. I'm going to be the best I can possibly be!