Christmas

Christmas was really good up until the end.

I got a new iPod and a dinosaur coloring book! :D It was great, and it was fun and everyone got along.

Then, at dinner, Shiloh was being really annoying under the table and when I looked under his paws were all wonky and sticking out and he was flailing about and I thought he had gotten caught in something, so I went down to help him and he got really stiff and fell over and started shaking :(

So then I started crying, because he was having a seizure, and he's my puppy! And he just layed there shaking for like five minutes, and I'm crying, and my moms crying and it was just awful. Then we took him to the Animal Hospital and we sat there for like two hours while they ran tests in him. Then they told us that they have to keep him over night, so we went home.

I'm just scared.. My little puppy.. :(

Today is Boxing Day, and the Cooks' always have a party. But I don't want to go. I don't like being around them anymore. Its not fun for me. I feel like an outcast when I'm with them, because I don't enjoy any of the same things as them, and I don't have any of the same friends and its just awkward! And Daniela was suppose to come, and now she's not and I'm just feeling so blue. Christmas is over, Shilohs in the hospital, its gloomy outside, and all of my friends are too busy for me.

I'm really wishing for happier times...

I mean, I'm having such a hard time right now, and all of my friends, except Elizabeth and Nick ,are too busy to even notice or care.

I miss Josh. I know I shouldn't, and I'm pretty much over him, but I miss everything. I just want to go back in time to summer when everything was easy and good.

I really hope this semester goes by fast. I need to start over somewhere new.